Anxiety, the unknown, being forced to acknowledge that you have literally zero control over a situation, fear of the future outcome blah blah blah. These are all things I’ve been struggling with on a daily basis. But this morning it is anticipation. That knot in your throat, clammy hands, butterflies in your stomach, not knowing what is going to happen. 

My thoughts are racing almost as fast as my faith is fading and these mornings I wonder how I’m going to make it. 

“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1

 I feel like this is what God has called me to right now. To simply be sure of what I hope for and certain of what I have yet to see. It’s pretty much straight up faith. I do believe that God can perform miracles today in the modern world. At this moment I have no idea how my miracle is going to unfold but I will choose to be certain that God has ordained these events. He is in control and He will be glorified in my body. Even if at this moment my heart and resolve are frail his love is constant and that is all we need.  

My bpp and flow study will be even better today!
My amniotic fluid will go up. 
No need for steroid shots today (or any time soon).
That there will be even more diastolic flow to the baby. 
She will grow grow grow!
My sister will have a safe trip from Philadelphia. 

A great study yesterday. 
My sister is visiting!!!
My husband visited twice yesterday and I got to see my boys!
A great night of restful sleep!


2 thoughts on “Anticipation

  1. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Phil. 4:6-7) My family is praying for you and baby. Thank you for the updates.

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