And you can insert any number of platitudes, inspirational quotes, or words of wisdom here and it still sucks.
Truthfully I’m thankful she is still trucking because each day is a victory right now. And it is true that I should be thankful there is another test to worry about tomorrow. And I am, but this sucks.
The ups and downs are honestly nauseating at this point.
If I look to the future, I have no idea where the strength for the next second is coming much less the days weeks and months ahead. But I have to I have faith the strength will be there when I need it. Elisabeth Elliot used to remind me daily on her radio program, “You are loved with an everlasting love and underneath are his everlasting arms.” And i need that truth to settle in my heart right now. So here I am as always, just acutely aware today, waiting, trusting and moving forward to see what his plans will be.
Ultrasound update: 60 percent flow 40 percent absent. Fluid lower.